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Thursday, February 26, 2009,8:03 PM
blog shop
was busy with my blog shop.. many ppl had email me and asked.. but not much ppl order.. maybe thery ask for fun.. haha..=x
anyway..i am here to post my valentine's day gift..it was done by wj.. a hand made music box

Wednesday, February 18, 2009,11:54 PM
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i had already tried my best.. its my 1st time really do house work every day... i washed all the dirty plates in the basin, i clean the floor everyday.. i juz dun haf enuff energy to take the bamboo in frm outside, and tat y i didnt do it.. and yes.. i forgot the clothes on the chair.. yes.. i admitted i forgot.. but i am really trying my best.. everyday before my mum comes back i will check wat else i haf not done.. and when i always tot there is nth more, my mum will always got thing to scold me.. this is not wat i wan.. i realli did tried my best, y cant she notice i had ttried? yes i know its not enuff.. but i am new to all this.. i really didnt realised the rest.. i didnt mean to be lazy.. if i do.. i can dun do anything but juz sit there...
yes.. i use the come always recently.. for wat.. i am juz trying to earn some extra income for the family.. i even sign up for tutor.. but no1 nid tutor for chinese.. and tats the onli thing i am confidence to tch.. y is she always so angry with me... i really tried.. its takes time to change a person habit isnt it?! i am trying to spend as little as i can.. i didnt buy clothes.. i didnt repair my com.. i didnt do alot of thing... juz try to spend lesser and save up some money... i also wish tat i can work i can earn some money.. at least my mum dun haf to gif me.. but i juz dun haf a PR.. wat can i do.......................
i know she come back still nid to do hse work is very tiring for her.. i know.. tat y i am trying my best to do it and share it.. so when she come back she dun haf to do aything can sit back and relax........... but she will nv know.. she will onli know i am useless.. everything also cant help..she will nv know how much i tried to help... in her eyes i will always be useless.. when i say smth to explain she say i finding excuses or talk back to her.. so i learn to keep quiet.. but when i keep quiet she say she rather me be dead also dun live in this world coz i am totally useless..
Tuesday, February 17, 2009,3:25 AM
happy
can wj dun work? lol.. impossible.. i wan to go hk with him again.. its so nice.. wj is going to army soon.. haiz haiz.. lesser and lesser time to be with him.. a few days ago.. my sai sai lub nearly dead.. lucky my sis was at home and saved his life.. mellow suddenly like hated ssl alot and wanted to kill him.. he bite on ssl neck and refused to let go!!! i am so scared and dunno wat to do.. juz scream and shout ssl ssl.. lol.. idiot me.. i shld save him with my life.. lol.. and ssl has got alot of wounds on his body after the tough 2 days.. until now the wounds are not heal yet.. and ytd my sis bought ssl down to see mellow see whether they will fight anot.. i heard the fighting sound upstair and so i rush down to see.. and mellow dun let me touch him.. he bite me for sayang him!!! ssl was very scared and hide under my leg.. but when he saw mellow bite me, he dashed out and wanted to fight mellow for me!! he was being so brave just for me.. just coz he wanted to protect me and he over come his fear!!! OMG!! wat a brave puppy.. i didnt know ssl will feel so much for me and protect me!!! to me he only know how to eat and slp.. ssl i love u so much!!! no wonder wj say he sent u here.. coz u will protect me when he is not here, and accompany me while he cnt.. i will give u lots of treats!! lol
Monday, February 9, 2009,3:20 AM
spoil mood
本來是想給他聼celine dion的Because you loved me. this song's lyrics is really meaningful to me. It just like descirbing what he is to me. this song just fit pecfectly. and when i am trying to search for this song in youtube after finishing my meal. my com encounter some prob or error, and i cant go to youtube. when i finally get the song, i wanted to send him and also the lyrics. he is offline. so i called him. thinking tat maybe i could sing to him? it may be more meaningful this way. so i copy down all the lyrics as i definely cant rmb them all. and this took me quite some time. and when i tried to sing it once myself. i found that the tune is difficult. i cannot sing it without listening to the song at the same time.so i called him. and wanted to let him hear directly frm the com. but he kept falling aslp. so wats the point i let him listen now? he may not be able to hear and understand every single words. and this song is really meaningful to me. i dun wan him to listen in this way. i wan him to understand, to know how it mean to me and how he meant to me. and so i ask him to slp 1st, and he say i didnt slp early. and he juz now waited for me and now wait for my song, and he is very tired after worked and now say dun wan to let him listen. he got irritatied. and he heng up the phone. i really feel like crying. y now adays things always like tat? i cant deliever or say wat i wan to say.. or before i said anything, i had alr said or did smth which made him irritatied. and every night i called, he alr wan to slp. i dun even have chance or time to say anything.and this happened almost every night now. he got to help his dad with this and tat, i can onli called him when he is done. but when he is done, he need to slp. and he can fall aslp when talking to me. den.... wat can i say or do?he onli have such little time.. and he still have to spare some of this little time to his frens. how much is there left for me?he can always ton with his fren but not me..i always wan to ton with him with no1 else ard. not with frens. i wan to be with him alone for one whole day and night. and he can hug me to sleep. his hug is wat i enjoy most and wat i wanted most. my mum ask me wat my face like swallon, wat can i say? i cried the whole night? every 2 to 3 days i will cry. there will definely be smth tat make us unhappy. i dun wan things tis way............Celine Dion Because you Loved me Lyrics:For all those times you stood by me For all the truth that you made me see For all the joy you brought to my life For all the wrong that you made right For every dream you made come true For all the love I found in you I'll be forever thankful baby You're the one who held me up Never let me fall You're the one who saw me through through it all You were my strength when I was weak You were my voice when I couldn't speak You were my eyes when I couldn't see You saw the best there was in meLifted me up when I couldn't reach You gave me faith 'cuz you believed I'm everything I am Because you loved me You gave me wings and made me fly You touched my hand I could touch the sky I lost my faith, you gave it back to me You said no star was out of reach You stood by me and I stood tall I had your love I had it all I'm grateful for each day you gave me Maybe I don't know that much But I know this much is true I was blessed because I was loved by you You were my strength when I was weak You were my voice when I couldn't speak You were my eyes when I couldn't seeYou saw the best there was in me Lifted me up when I couldn't reach You gave me faith 'cuz you believed I'm everything I am Because you loved me You were always there for me The tender wind that carried me A light in the dark shining your love into my life You've been my inspiration Through the lies you were the truth My world is a better place because of you You were my strength when I was weak You were my voice when I couldn't speakYou were my eyes when I couldn't see You saw the best there was in me Lifted me up when I couldn't reach You gave me faith 'cuz you believed I'm everything I am Because you loved me You were my strength when I was weak You were my voice when I couldn't speakYou were my eyes when I couldn't see You saw the best there was in me Lifted me up when I couldn't reach You gave me faith 'cuz you believed I'm everything I am Because you loved me I'm everything I am Because you loved meYes...i am everything i am becuase u love me, i am juz nth without u.. but i cant deliver it to u when i wanted to. My WJ...When will u be back...The old u who only wan to spend more time with me...The old u who nv allow yourself to shout to me...The old u who will always control yourself and be nice to me no matter how willful and unreasonable i am...I miss u...
Saturday, February 7, 2009,3:39 AM
我懷念的
時間,很恐怖。它令所有東西,不管是人還是事, 都必需配合着他而改變。我懷念當初我們的無話不說,總是有無盡的話題,到了三更半夜還不願意放下電話。每一天想盡辦法都要見到對方, 哪怕只有一下子. 就算沒有錢, 我們還是很開心. 那時的我天天都有你陪伴着, 我每天都過得很開心. 那時的你沒有現在的壓力, 對我的容忍度很高. 就算我很任性, 你也會盡量遷就我. 可是只有一年. 現在我說錯了幾個字也會惹你生氣. 我不怪你, 也不生氣, 只是傷心和想念. 我知道我幼稚,天真,不會想,任性,無理取閙. 可是這一切都是因爲我很想念你,很想見你,很想像以前一樣. 我很像融入你現在的生活,因爲只有這樣我才能有多一點時間和你在一起. 可是我做不到. 很辛苦.我做每一件事,説每一句話都好害怕, 害怕說錯做錯. 我完全不知該如何是好. 我害怕他們如何看我, 我害怕他們的眼光. 我害怕他們的言語. 我常常自己在晚上想到哭. 其實我每天都有好多東西想要告訴你, 可是我總是在說了幾句后就不像再繼續了. 因為你的回答讓我不想再說了. 好想回到從前.找回以前的我和你.