I am living a happy life now

i am dying

2009-07-17T04:50:00.002+08:00

will u still read my blog?
i really didnt do anything tat betray u..
u shld trust me n give me a chance to explain..
u juz give this r/s up like this?
n the reason is a misunderstanding which u dun wan to clearify?
so this is ur love for this r/s?

as time pass...
i miss u more n more each day..
i finally realised tat u are gone.
u know how much u r hurting me?
for thinking tat i am such a bitch.. for not trusting me.. for dun even give me a chance to explain
i look at our memories we shared, our past, ur gift..
so this is how easy u give up..
i tried my best to be happy everyday..

will ur heart ache when u see me hurt?
will ur heart ache when u see me cry?
do u still love me n care abt me like u used to be?
u dun seem like u care abt whether i am hurted anot..

are u reading this blog?
are u still wanting to know how am i?

I MISS WEN JIE

2009-06-20T23:12:00.003+08:00

I miss wen jie! i know he miss me too!

i wan to marry him, be his wife. n have a family with him which consist 3 dogs! (he promised me to buy me 3 dogs) sai sai lub will be our witness! i know is childish to say i will defintiely marry him. but i do believe i will!

as shelly said, you must always sacrify something in order to gain something! although now we dont have much time to be together, but the sacrified time will gain us good future! (hope so)

I gave my all to u, please take good care of me!

wanna see money face?

stress

2009-06-18T15:34:00.001+08:00

in hong kong, i got nothing but stress. alot alot of stress. i broke down a few times within a month. the 1st time in my life that i got depressed. it really hard to pick urself up. i used 1 week to stop crying n continue to live. i had tried to get some comfort n support from wj, but failed. tis really make thing so much more difficult for me. i felt alone, not lonely, as i know i have friends. but alone, the 1 who should share my unhappiness with me, the support i need most, are not there, beat me down deeper instead. i had to face all this alone.no1 is going to help me, no1 is going to help me stand up again, all i am having is myself.my eng is not gd enuff to describ how it feel, but it really really horrible. terrifing even just think of it.

i dunno wat wj busy with. told him to buy a better card to call me at my old house there, he say he not free, there is always ways to do something. cant he ask shelly to help since her school is so near? buy those dunno wat card. cant even use. for what? if u really so busy, then leave me an offline msg in msn? send me a email? i only received one email from him, thats after i got angry.y are u so busy? what are u busy with? i have no idea? i feel that i am so unimportant. shouldnt you try to contact me more since i am in overseas ALONE?!

ur unconcern made me more stress. if your concern, y didnt u do something? concern is not just about thinking n saying. i know u will say i am asking for too much. but look at my pervious post. y didnt i write smth like this? coz i see your concern, you do turn them in action for me to see it. now? even keeping a dog, you need to give him time, love n care. i am a human, but that doesnt mean i dont need. yes. you may say i am not understanding, i am unreasonable. maybe i am, but time, love n care are what i need too.

it seems like we couldnt pass this test....

12/6 my bday

2009-06-18T14:39:00.003+08:00

8/6 - yu called me n asked me to meet at tong lo wan, he told me that he was standing at MRT exit B1, but there is no exit B1, only D1. i walked around the whole MRT station n search for him for almost an hour, but yet i still couldnt find him. i got so pissed off, so i called him again, n told him that there is no exit B1 in the mrt station, and almost one an hour searching, then he told me that he was in time square city super B1! OMG! FAINT! thats 2 different places. not MRT at all.

i walked to time square n found the city super, and when i was think how should i scold him for such unclear information, i found 2 familiar faces. SHELLY & HER MUM!!! its really a susprise! i know shelly come here for my bday!! i am so touched!! what a great friend i have. before shelly come, i was thinking "hai, 21st bday. nvm la. also not smth big. it just a normal day, even my aunt celebrate with me i wun be happy too. i am not happy in hk." and then shelly came! it means alot to me!

so we went shopping n enjoying ourselves for the next few days. on my bday, when i had just finished bathing, n i am brushing my teeth, shelly mum said that she wan to go toilet. so i wrap a towl around myself n open the door, but after awhile she still have nt come in, so i walked out. and i saw a bday cake! they are so sweet. i am really touched. the bday i tot i am not gg to celebrate it, n now my best fren was celebrating it for me!

thank you shelly, i love u. i feel so lucky to hve u as my best fren. it amazing that someone as good as u treat me as best fren n willing to do smth for me until this extend. the touched is smth cant describ by word. but THANK YOU SHELLY!!

Sentosa

2009-04-30T19:44:00.003+08:00

got see a happy dog?

ok. i spa with you. haha. wj dun wan to go in to the water

but wether is really too hot. he go to the seas and SPA!!!

see how comfortable he is.

finally he is out of the shade, as his favourite toy is out!!

sai sai lub onli wan to stay inside the shade

is my last day in sg. went to sentosa with wj and ssl. its really fun. i love it. but the time we spend there abit short, hope to spend longer next time if there is chance.

upload more ltr. =]

Janice

2009-04-29T20:18:00.002+08:00

jan, i hope you can be strong. believes those who u think will not harm you, as no point for them to harm you.
believes those who are trying to protect you, not those just wan to take advange from you.
believes those who really gave their hearts to you, not those just faking everything.
believes those who you know well, trust what you know about them, their character, their heart to u, not those you just know for awhile, and with all the negative comments about them.

janice, please, i know u are clever enough to know who is gd to you. who will always protect you and be your sides.

and sorry. please forgive me.

Hong Kong

2009-04-29T20:08:00.002+08:00

i am back in hong kong now. miss everything in sg so much. i totally cant get used to the living, the language used, the money, the people etc. today i went to my neighbourhood sec school, seems like its hard for me to get in, all of them ask me to try again during Aug. haiz, seems like i am not going anywhere, even i had went back to hk also dun haf much hope. its so disappointing. i will try again tomorrow, for all the diploma course in hong kong.

dunno wat is ssl doing.

i didnt get my com yet.my uncle didnt do anything with it. -.- i gues i will tell him i need the com urgently so he will give me faster.

count down to good bye

2009-04-27T02:53:00.002+08:00

today is the last second day i am in singapore. and tml will be the last. everything happen so sudden. when i knew that i failed to go poly, i cried, i am lost, i dunno what to do. and then praying that alvin's dad maybe able to help me, after that thinking about going ite, but ite said that they are not taking in any foreign students. i had left with no choice but to go back to hong kong, this is the last thing i want to do. every night when i sleep, i see sai sai lub lying beside me, seeing his innocent face, didnt know that i am about to go, didnt know that he cant see me anymore after a few days later, i cant help to imagine what will happen 28th. sai sai lub will be so happy shaking his tail, running and jumping around to welcome my fren who come here to accompany to the air port. when we left the house, he will be sitting there watching us go, not knowing anything. stay at home, waiting for me to come home again. all these really hurt me alot alot. its really hurts. my heart is aching every night when i see him, when my crying sound wakes him up he will lick me, lick my tears away from my face, pushing his head to my hand wants me to pet him. what a silly dog he is. he had only got 15 years to live, and i cant be with him for this few years.

lucky i still able to spend his 1 year old bday with him, i had kept him for 1 year!! and now we have to separate for a few years, please dont forget me,sai sai lub.

everyone asked me did wj know? how about him? i also dunno. i dun wan to live without him,thats all i know. i dunno how am i gg to pass my days, not long ago, we went to hk together. at that time we were so happy, we had a really great time, and we dream go to again. and now our dream come true, but just me going alone. the same place, but different mood. i dun wan to go. my mind refuse to pack. i juz want to stay here, with all my good frens here,my love, my baby, my life, they are all here. i dunno how long i will takes to settle my feeling. once i reach hk i will be busy looking for school and jobs. i hae got many many things want to say to wj, but i dunno what to say, how to say.

tw and shelly are my best best best buddy, in between us there is no secret. i am sure i cant meet anyone like you 2 again. i am really glad to know u 2, especial shelly, we know rach other since young, we grow together, we did alot of crazy things together. i had many many good and happy memories with you. you are a really great fren or i shld say sister? although i didnt know tw as long as i know shelly, but she is also my sister. they both is the most important fren to me, they treasure me, they care for me, they love me. its really too much to be said. i love you, tzu wei and shelly, i hope the distance will not be a prob to us,and i believe it will not, coz i know you both well. =]

i am so happy to see edward is back, my sis is happy again. this is the 1st time i am not living with my sis anymore.

Yesterday Night

2009-03-19T03:51:00.002+08:00

昨天晚上，我自己一个人在家。文杰又去玩了，他的电话又没开，不能和他说说话再睡。感觉好像有点孤独。可是当我躺在床上那一刻起，我就发现我错了。我觉得身旁好像有一丝丝暖暖的感觉。转头一看，原来小文杰在。sai sai lub 总是代替着文杰陪我，因为它，我没有一刻时孤独的。也因为是文杰走进了我的生命，把sai sai lub 带进我的生活里。我的生活没有起伏，不刺激，也不精彩，可是我过的很快乐。因为简简单单，平凡无趣的生活里，都是被满满的幸福包围着。

文杰，你不用担心。sai sai lub 很尽责！！你托付给他的任务，他都做得很好。他无时无刻都陪着我。有人来的时候，会告诉我。有客人来的时候也很很很热情地招呼客人。可是呀，我还是比较喜欢看到你，比较喜欢你也能来陪我。

Cant go home

2009-03-07T03:09:00.002+08:00

today i left my key at wj hse!!! i am unable to go hm until either my family member is back or wj is back to his hse. At first, i wanted to bring ssl to the basketball court too. As he is scare to be leave alone, so i plan to go and get him. but when i reach my door step den i realised i leave it in wj's hse!! ssl was crying and wanted me to go in.. my poor ssl. haiz

i had leave with no choice but to leave him alone in the house and i went to the bball court. its so good to see them. my old school mates. all of them still 老样子, except for yong kang and ye jie. yong kang become super fat. at least fatter den alvin. he is like a ballon being blown up. i am so shocked and i cant keep my eyes off him!!! ye jie become better looking!!! coz of his teeth i think. but he realli become more 帅!!!

my ssl is so cute.. everyday he wants people to pet him. non -stop, he will never satisfy. keep wanting for more. even when my sis was asleep he wanted to wake her up to pet him. hahaha.. stupid sai sai lub. i will be bring him to the west coast dog run on 14/3. anyone wants to join me?

I MISS WEN JIE.

blog shop

2009-02-26T20:03:00.002+08:00

was busy with my blog shop.. many ppl had email me and asked.. but not much ppl order.. maybe thery ask for fun.. haha..=x

anyway..i am here to post my valentine's day gift..it was done by wj.. a hand made music box

..........

2009-02-18T23:54:00.002+08:00

i had already tried my best.. its my 1st time really do house work every day... i washed all the dirty plates in the basin, i clean the floor everyday.. i juz dun haf enuff energy to take the bamboo in frm outside, and tat y i didnt do it.. and yes.. i forgot the clothes on the chair.. yes.. i admitted i forgot.. but i am really trying my best.. everyday before my mum comes back i will check wat else i haf not done.. and when i always tot there is nth more, my mum will always got thing to scold me.. this is not wat i wan.. i realli did tried my best, y cant she notice i had ttried? yes i know its not enuff.. but i am new to all this.. i really didnt realised the rest.. i didnt mean to be lazy.. if i do.. i can dun do anything but juz sit there...

yes.. i use the come always recently.. for wat.. i am juz trying to earn some extra income for the family.. i even sign up for tutor.. but no1 nid tutor for chinese.. and tats the onli thing i am confidence to tch.. y is she always so angry with me... i really tried.. its takes time to change a person habit isnt it?! i am trying to spend as little as i can.. i didnt buy clothes.. i didnt repair my com.. i didnt do alot of thing... juz try to spend lesser and save up some money... i also wish tat i can work i can earn some money.. at least my mum dun haf to gif me.. but i juz dun haf a PR.. wat can i do.......................

i know she come back still nid to do hse work is very tiring for her.. i know.. tat y i am trying my best to do it and share it.. so when she come back she dun haf to do aything can sit back and relax........... but she will nv know.. she will onli know i am useless.. everything also cant help..she will nv know how much i tried to help... in her eyes i will always be useless.. when i say smth to explain she say i finding excuses or talk back to her.. so i learn to keep quiet.. but when i keep quiet she say she rather me be dead also dun live in this world coz i am totally useless..

happy

2009-02-17T03:25:00.002+08:00

can wj dun work? lol.. impossible.. i wan to go hk with him again.. its so nice.. wj is going to army soon.. haiz haiz.. lesser and lesser time to be with him..

a few days ago.. my sai sai lub nearly dead.. lucky my sis was at home and saved his life.. mellow suddenly like hated ssl alot and wanted to kill him.. he bite on ssl neck and refused to let go!!! i am so scared and dunno wat to do.. juz scream and shout ssl ssl.. lol.. idiot me.. i shld save him with my life.. lol.. and ssl has got alot of wounds on his body after the tough 2 days.. until now the wounds are not heal yet..

and ytd my sis bought ssl down to see mellow see whether they will fight anot.. i heard the fighting sound upstair and so i rush down to see.. and mellow dun let me touch him.. he bite me for sayang him!!! ssl was very scared and hide under my leg.. but when he saw mellow bite me, he dashed out and wanted to fight mellow for me!! he was being so brave just for me.. just coz he wanted to protect me and he over come his fear!!! OMG!! wat a brave puppy.. i didnt know ssl will feel so much for me and protect me!!! to me he only know how to eat and slp.. ssl i love u so much!!! no wonder wj say he sent u here.. coz u will protect me when he is not here, and accompany me while he cnt.. i will give u lots of treats!! lol

spoil mood

2009-02-09T03:20:00.002+08:00

本來是想給他聼celine dion的Because you loved me. this song's lyrics is really meaningful to me. It just like descirbing what he is to me. this song just fit pecfectly. and when i am trying to search for this song in youtube after finishing my meal. my com encounter some prob or error, and i cant go to youtube. when i finally get the song, i wanted to send him and also the lyrics. he is offline. so i called him. thinking tat maybe i could sing to him? it may be more meaningful this way. so i copy down all the lyrics as i definely cant rmb them all. and this took me quite some time. and when i tried to sing it once myself. i found that the tune is difficult. i cannot sing it without listening to the song at the same time.

so i called him. and wanted to let him hear directly frm the com. but he kept falling aslp. so wats the point i let him listen now? he may not be able to hear and understand every single words. and this song is really meaningful to me. i dun wan him to listen in this way. i wan him to understand, to know how it mean to me and how he meant to me. and so i ask him to slp 1st, and he say i didnt slp early. and he juz now waited for me and now wait for my song, and he is very tired after worked and now say dun wan to let him listen. he got irritatied. and he heng up the phone. i really feel like crying. y now adays things always like tat? i cant deliever or say wat i wan to say.. or before i said anything, i had alr said or did smth which made him irritatied. and every night i called, he alr wan to slp. i dun even have chance or time to say anything.and this happened almost every night now. he got to help his dad with this and tat, i can onli called him when he is done. but when he is done, he need to slp. and he can fall aslp when talking to me. den.... wat can i say or do?he onli have such little time.. and he still have to spare some of this little time to his frens. how much is there left for me?

he can always ton with his fren but not me..i always wan to ton with him with no1 else ard. not with frens. i wan to be with him alone for one whole day and night. and he can hug me to sleep. his hug is wat i enjoy most and wat i wanted most. my mum ask me wat my face like swallon, wat can i say? i cried the whole night? every 2 to 3 days i will cry. there will definely be smth tat make us unhappy. i dun wan things tis way............

Celine Dion Because you Loved me Lyrics:

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through
through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cuz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cuz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cuz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cuz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

Yes...i am everything i am becuase u love me, i am juz nth without u.. but i cant deliver it to u when i wanted to.

My WJ...
When will u be back...
The old u who only wan to spend more time with me...
The old u who nv allow yourself to shout to me...
The old u who will always control yourself and be nice to me no matter how willful and unreasonable i am...
I miss u...

我懷念的

2009-02-07T03:39:00.002+08:00

時間，很恐怖。它令所有東西，不管是人還是事，都必需配合着他而改變。我懷念當初我們的無話不說，總是有無盡的話題，到了三更半夜還不願意放下電話。每一天想盡辦法都要見到對方, 哪怕只有一下子. 就算沒有錢, 我們還是很開心. 那時的我天天都有你陪伴着, 我每天都過得很開心. 那時的你沒有現在的壓力, 對我的容忍度很高. 就算我很任性, 你也會盡量遷就我. 可是只有一年. 現在我說錯了幾個字也會惹你生氣. 我不怪你, 也不生氣, 只是傷心和想念. 我知道我幼稚,天真,不會想,任性,無理取閙. 可是這一切都是因爲我很想念你,很想見你,很想像以前一樣. 我很像融入你現在的生活,因爲只有這樣我才能有多一點時間和你在一起. 可是我做不到. 很辛苦.我做每一件事,説每一句話都好害怕, 害怕說錯做錯. 我完全不知該如何是好. 我害怕他們如何看我, 我害怕他們的眼光. 我害怕他們的言語. 我常常自己在晚上想到哭. 其實我每天都有好多東西想要告訴你, 可是我總是在說了幾句后就不像再繼續了. 因為你的回答讓我不想再說了.

好想回到從前.找回以前的我和你.

my leg is injured

2009-01-16T22:33:00.003+08:00

it had been a long time since i update. i am busy helping at wj stall recently. many things had happened. i had gotten my olvl result. i got 24.. but i can apply throught JAE, the only way i can go to poly is by DAE, which mean appeal. WTH!!! i dun wan to appeal my result is qualiflied for the nursing course, and this is the only course i wanted!! why muz i be the last option? juz coz i am a foreign and private student? its not fair.. i am so worried now.. wat if i cant get into any course? HAIZ.. monday i plan to go RP and SP to do my DAE. i had alr went to NP and NYP.

Anyway, Wj failed. But there is a big improvement in his result. He passed his science!!!! Can u believe it?! From F9 and now he passed. He failed coz his math got E8, he used pencil for working.. IDIOT!!! marks will not be given for pencil working.. He say he will retake his math, and he wan to go to army 1st. HAIZ...................

I have a new camera.. the pic taken by it is sharp and clear.

irritated

2008-12-28T22:02:00.002+08:00

My mum is abit unreasonable today, she come into my room and ask me to gif her money. I wished I can too. But I am only earning 40+ each day, and no work during week ends. Plus I got to pay my handphone bill and transport with my paid, I hardly an have some money to save alr. And she compared me with my sis, she said she had gave her 100. I gave her 200 with my 400 pay, juz tat i nv tell her, i juz put inside the bag with all the hk money my dad gave her. this is not money?! and my sis can work a very long hour each day, even on sat and sun. I am not! van she be a bit more reasonable considering abt my sitiuation? my sis is using student fare, while i am using adult, there is a big diff.

and i am tryng to save up some money to get a new hp, so that i can return the hp to my sis. and den she ask me to save up for my lap top with my paid for next yr, i dunno how can i do it. my monthly salary 400+, and a lap top doesnt cost onli a few hundred lor. and she still expect me to gif her money? deni guess i muz not eat in order to achieved all this thing lor!!!

29/11/08

2008-12-28T21:25:00.005+08:00

After 3 days, we finally can have our own time. The 1st thing we did was change hair style. We went to my father friend's shop. He is skilled. Maybe I didnt expressed wat I want well, it turn out its not wat I wanted. nvm, it still look nice. Wj cut his hair too, and also reborn his frigde. He looks cute and funny while he was being wrap up all his hair with towl. He looks like a girl. Haha.

When everything was done, it is around 5/6, so decided to have some food before we go anywhere else. I brought him to the beef noodles shop where I like to eat there since young. We meet malaysian there. He chatted with us, but I rather he don't. As his topic don't really interest me, and he is wired in some way. He told us there is a place in china where u can buy very cheap and good phone. We had noted down the address but we didnt go there, we don't have time for that. But the price is really too cheap and I can hardly believe, so we dint pay much attention to it. Anyway we dun haf the time to spare.

After dinner, we went to sa tin, a big shopping centre with everything inside. As long as u named it, u can find it there. It is really a nice place to shop, we didnt have enough time to finish our shopping, so we decided to go again tml. Anyway, I had bought a t-shirt dress at french collection and a pants at roxy, both were having discount.

Wj came to my house today, so that its near for us to go sa tin again tomorrow. He wear my pajymas. And he really looked funny.

BBQ

2008-12-28T20:34:00.002+08:00

Yesterday I BBQ with Janice and Tzu Wei. It was kind of funny that we BBQ with just 3 person. I tried out 2 cooking methods yesterday.

1st i cook the curry beef with Sanji's receipt. i noted them down when I watched One Piece. It turn out quite nice. I packed it and send them to WJ, he was working at JP yesterday. WJ's aunty is funny. Everytime she saw me appeared and wanted to pass Wj some food, she definely will say "WAH". Lol. I don't know what is that for. Sound like she is amazed by something great. Lol.

After I had passed Wj the curry, I went to the new NTUC with Jan and TW. We had bought alot of things for our BBQ, I should said alot of food. And here is my second receipt comes, BBQ the food with onli chilli powder and honey. I don't know will it works, but when I am in China, my father brought me to a shop which sell bbq, they did the sae way, with onli honey and chilli. Of course it is damn super nice!!! I love it alot. As long as i am in china I will eat it. I told TW abt it, and told she will not wan her chilli source at all after she tried it. And she dun believe. Nvm. I will Prove it soon. Ha ha.

We started as soon as we were ready, I put honey and chilli powder on my Crab stick, and ask TW to do the same thing to her chicken wing, but she refused. After my crab stick is done, and i tried, and OMG, it was nice. I asked TW to tried my crab stick, she straight away put honey and chilli powder on her chicken wing. LOL. She was as funny as usual. We ate alot alot. almost finished all the food we had bought. Beside us, there was a group of youngster, but i guessed the are at their 20s, look quite old but not yet uncle or aunty. They started later then us, but finished earlier then us. They still offered us some food which they cant finish, but we didnt take it. As we got more dne enough food. When they were going, one of them put both his thumbs up and said, "hen li hai chi" LOL.

Actually it is nice to have a BBQ like this, I enjoyed it. I hope we can soon have another one with Wj here too.

We had taken some pictures, but i had not got from TW, I will post it after TW send me.

28/11/08 in HK

2008-12-26T13:38:00.002+08:00

I spent 28/11 in china with my dad and his wife. Actually I should said was with his wife. As my father was busy working, so she was the one who accompany me. I love them, they make me feel like I am a little princess whenever I am with them. They will get me whatever i wan. I can eat whatever I like. and buy whatever I wan.. As long as it is not too expensive, and of course I made good use of this oppunity to eat alot alot of stuff, and I really ean ALOT. It is amazing that I can eat so much. But.......... if i dun eat them now, when will be the next time I can eat them again?

As for Wj, he went around a history house with his grandparents. I didnt know he was waiting for my call and feeling so anxious that he cant enjoy himself at all. He get back home very early just to wait for my call, and he got no mood to go anywhere else. I didnt call him until night time. He picked up the call very fast, and keep saying hello hello, sounds like he was very panic. I promised him i will go back to HK tml early in the morning. He is so cute,no wonder I love him so much.

3rd day in hk 27/11/08

2008-12-26T02:21:00.007+08:00

We had planned something on yesterday night, which is i shall go to china and look for my dad and he will accompany his grandparents for 2 days, and so after the 2 days we can have our own time. His grandfather had planned something for him. He wanted to take him to tai ping shan. And as usual, we woke up early, began our day with dim sum, and we set off to tai ping shan.

Here are some pictures when we were on the way to tai ping shan and in the cable car, going up to the hill.

We went to the wax mesum. Here are some photos while we are in there. I Post them all out, as there are really too much. So I only selected a few.

Inside this mesum, there is a haunted house. The theme is about zombie. It is very scary to me as there will be real people inside with full make up to scare u. I don't dare to lift my head up, even Wj keep telling me to do so. And now i think back, I really dunno why i don;t dare to lift my head up, while i already know they are real people, and they wil not touch me.. stupid me. If there is another chance, i will be brave and lift my head up. Anyway, according to Wj, it is really quite scary, sometime the zombies shocked him. They just come out suddenly and their face are super near to ur face. And their make up are really scary. I dunno what i went in for, i didnt even see a thing except i saw one zombie as i tried to lift up my head and heard alot of banging sound. That all i felt inside. LOL.

After that we went to the top of the mount for views. Our timing was not bad, the sun was setting. It is beauitful, especially u watched it with your love. It was freezing up there, i am not able to stop tembling coz of the cold wind keep blowing in all direction. We took some pictures there. One of the picture was taken by the theif!!! he stole Wj hp in the toilet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so angry and sad. A hp juz gone like this.

Afterward, i went to look for my father, he fetched me to china.

UPDATE UPDATE 26/11/08

2008-12-08T13:06:00.008+08:00

YES.. i have not been updating my blog for ages.. as i am really busy.. i start work straight after my o lvl had finished.. i am now working with zq's mum.. everyday i go to office to help out with the typing and arrenaging documents.. its not difficult.. but i always scare tat i will do it wrongly..

And at 25th of nov.. i happiest time had came.. this is the day i am flying to hong kong with WEN JIE.. i am so exciting.. we are going to see each other every day and night for 12 days.. we had bought alot of cheap and nice stuff.. some of them are having 50% discount..

During the 2nd day, we woke up very early and had dim sun as our breakfast with wj's grandparents. After our meal, we went to somewhere whereby there is a group of angel statues, according to what they returned there, as long as a couple hold their hand tgt with the angels, they will be blessed, and music will be heard. And of course, meand wj got the blessing from the angels. Here is the photo. It is not very nice, my face were covered by his grandfather's figner. He don't really know how to use a digital camera, so nvm. As long as there is some evidence to proved that we had been blessed. And we both look ugly..-.-

After walking around at that beauitful shopping centre, its almost time for wj to go and do his IC. The main purpose of him going back to HK. It took a few hours for it to completed. We went to mong kok after that. there is a shopping centre where are the cheap stuff located. They are not branded, just like bugis street. But there have got more shops and of coz cheaper then bugis street, most importantly, the quality is better. We didnt buy much thing from that shoping centre. Wj bought one long selvees and I had bought some hair clips only. but in this shopping centre there is a food called "low low".. its super nice la.. after wj had tried it once.. he wanted more and more.. and he must eat at least one packet everyday, like an drug addict.. more importantly, in mong kok.. there is a pet street.. and this is the place i must go.. we went there and bought 2 doggie clothes.. one for mellow and one for ssl.. its so cheap!!! actually i wanted to buy more.. but as hong kong is now winter.. so all the doggy clothes are very thick..

after the pet street we went to have our dinner, we decided to have our dinner at one shop which u cn choose the level of spicy u like for ur noodles, and wj end up cant ate his noodles coz it doesnt taste nice.. and i think its too spicy.. so we share my bowl.

In mong kok,there is a street whereby they sell alot of electronic stuff. like camera mp3 etc.. and wj had bought me a intax camera.. When we reached home, we took out all our stuffs out, and we realized we lost the box of the camera, inside there is a box of hello kitty film!!!!!!!!!!

This is how my camera look like and tat is the photo taken by this camera.. after we bought this camera den we went to another street whereby the whole street is selling shoes.. i had bought one back pack there.. it is branded but it is having a discount so very cheap.. $53 sg.. wj had bought a t-shirt at the same shop.. we continue to walk along the street. and wj bought a pair of high cut vans shoes.. it got super discount.. from hk$600+ discount till hk$299 = sg$62..is it cheaper?? for this i dunno.. haha.. and this is the end of our 2nd day.. tgt we went to wj hse and get some rest.

sentosa and camping

2008-10-13T13:36:00.005+08:00

11th oct i woke up at 8.30 morning and pack thing for sai sai lub.. as we were going to sentosa later.. i guess its really a long journy for sai sai lub.. when we had rch sentosa he vomit.. while we are at the carpark he vomit a sec time.. he is so weak!! once i had rch the beach.. without waiting, i brought sai sai lub to the sea and hope he will swim and will not scare of swimming after a few times.. but he waas really scare and dislike swimming i guess.. he swim towards me and hug me very tie!!! he is so cute lor.. later we meet a beagle.. he look so fierce.. his eyes is redish..of coz sai sai lub played with him!! and after awhile we meet 2 female jack russell.. they are same age with sai sai lub.. but they are much smaller den him.. so sai sai lub is not small but huge!! haha.. one of the is wire coat.. its so beaitful lor.. and sai sai lub likes the wire coat jrt.. he keep chasing after her.. good taste sai sai lub..

during the night i went to east coast park for camping and night cycling.. the cycling was killing my butt!!!! is so painful lor!!! and after awhile i was not feeling well.. so i cant join them for ythe rest of the night!! so sad lor.. i am there but yet i missed the fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wan to go again!! this time i will not go anywhere before hand!! lol..

funny dream

2008-10-06T13:55:00.002+08:00

recently, wj is crazy for a anime called one peace.. (if i didnt spell it wrongly) and i think he is really thinking too much during the day time.. when he sleep he had a dream abt it.. me and him had become 2 new character inside.. he say in his dream i am quite skillful and fight very well.. my fighting skill is to let my dog out to bite and they will use their paw paw to beat the enemies.. somemore my dog is mellow and sai sai lub combine into one body.. mean one body 2 heads.. -.- .. and i can join them too.. when i combine with them den one dog body got 3 heads.. but my strenght will become very powerful.. lol.. is super lame.. he say my dog will keep shitting and in his dream i am busy picking up shit all day.. -.-..

den he tell me abt his skill in his dream.. in fact he got no skill.. hahahahahaha.. the only skill he had got is to become a ball and run away.. he said his ball very good nobody can catch him when he turn into a ball.. coz he can bounce everywhere.. -.- he say when we encounter enemies we all fight very hard while he juz run away and hide.. when everything is ended den he come out to meet us.. -.-.. he is so lousy lor..

happy

2008-09-29T14:31:00.002+08:00

while waiting for wj to wake up and go lib tgt.. i think of smth.. i really think i am the most happiest gal in this world.. at least i am really happy with the life i am having now.. i had nv know tat life can be so beautiful.. i have a almost flawless bf.. he bought me a puppy during my bday.. he knew tat owning a dog is my dream since young, i had even wrote a compo about getting a dog during my bday.. and my wish come true.. so i think make a wish before blowing the candles really work.. but takes time.. lol.. wj really take very good care of me.. he will wash everything after i eat.. clean my room when it is dirty, coz he wan me to slp at a comfortable room.. did all the house work tat i dun like to do.. actually i dislike all.. lol.. as long as i wan smth he will try his best to give me.. everytime when we quarrel even i am at fault he also will an wei me.. when eating crab or shrimp, he will always peel of the sheel for me.. one is he know i will be lazy to peel it off myself so i will rather not to eat, second is tat he know i dun wan to dirty my hand.. 3rd is i really love to eat them.. the last and impt one is i am clumsy so i will cut myself easily when peeling off the shell.. and he dun wan me to get hurt.. when we gg to sch or shopping i am always walking with free hand, is not tat i didnt bring any bag.. i do bring a heavy bag always.. but either it is heavy or light he will carry for me.. as we wanted to save money, so we cook at home everyday.. i had said juz now.. i am clumsy and lazy.. so he cooked for me every meal.. haha.. so i all do is juz eat slp play.. i had been so well protected by wj.. i am losing the ablility of taking care of myself.. heehee.. but nvm.. he promised he will do all this thing for me for the rest of my life..

as for fren.. i am a few best fren.. shelly, tzu wei, janice, jek, alvin, iris and wing.. the 7 of them is the best!!! they will not harm me.. and they care and love me.. in chinese there is sentence say smth means u will die with no regert if u had just one best fren.. but now i have 7!!!!!!!!!!! wahahahahaha.. they will always be there when i needed help, they will always be my side to protect me when i am in danger.. given me suggestion and advice when i am lost and confused.. they really bring me lot of joy.. and coloured my life with the colour pencil they holding in hand.. my life now is really clourful..

tw's mum is the best mother i had seen.. she is cheerful.. and full of crap like tw.. she is able to get into our topic easily.. and i really got to thank her for letting me have dinner with them, and when there is any event she will invited me to join.. coz of tw's family, i am not left out during all the festi.. it feel so terrible when everyone went out for dinner and gather with their family when i am alone at hm.. and spent the day with myself and the tv.. she is really my en ren.. lol.. i will definely treat her gd gd when i grow up.. i will treat her like my sec mother although she is not.. heehee.. really thank you to tw and her family..

as for my family, i got a great mother too.. although she is abit blind by love.. but nvm.. she is still a very great mother.. if there is next life.. i will want to be her daughter again.. she is really great.. she had nv give me any stress on my study and watever i do.. she love me and encourage me when i had prob.. she is alway be my shelter.. when i am hurt i can just go back to her arm and she will protect me and handle everything for me.. and she will nt blame me for anything.. without her i wun be standing here.. i will nt be wat i am now.. thank you mami.. you are the best.. i am thankful tat i am ur daughter but not anyone else..

of coz i have a cute little sis.. although we alway fight and quarrel.. but we truely love each other.. we know it in heart.. maybe we will say we hate each other.. but deep in our heart we know tat we love each other..maybe just like sai sai lub and mellow? haha.. and recently we are ablt to talk with each other.. i am so happy..

sai sai lub is my little boy.. he had been such a good boy.. he will not bite ppl anymore, also wun steal thing frm wherever it is.. he had changed all his bad habits.. and learn one bad habit which is fighting with mellow.. lol.. but nvm.. is not really serious.. sai sai lub is as clever as me man.. haha.. he always learn new command very fast.. just get him to do it a few time more he will learn it.. haha.. clever right.. he is a cute and lovely puppy.. love him.. muackz..

i had really got everything.. i got the world.. my own world.. i will die with no regert!! haha..

study

2008-09-25T23:42:00.001+08:00

wen jie finally really start to study.. but he only studied 3 hours today.. -.- .. nvm.. at least there is a start? but... will it be too late?? haiz..

busy

2008-09-23T17:37:00.003+08:00

had been very bz these few days or week? lol.. nth much.. bz moving hse.. i am at my new home now..i would say not bad.. very windy here.. i got to specialy thanks tw, jan and shelly.. my 3 best fren.. it is such a tiring job but they still came and help me without saying anything.. they even got muscle ache.. so sorry man.. but without ur help.. i guess it will be a really difficult job for me and my family.. i feel so happy and lucky tat i have these 3 frens.. they are really the best..

before i moved hse.. some days ago was kenny bday.. we went to a place for drinking.. i dunno how to spell the place name.. anyway its doesnt matter.. wat had happened was the most important part..we were playing some game while waiting for the rest to come.. and finally kenny came.. half glass of martel for him and they keep playing games with him.. the purpose is of coz to make him drunk.. his bday leh.. lol.. and they successed he was drunk and giddy?? lol.. he just keep kissing and hugging his gf (wj had nv hug me like he do lor) lol.. and coz he was drunk so his gf play on her own.. but he keep disturbing her.. and she lost many times and drank quite alot and i guess she was also drunk.. but she insist to carry on, so she just let her carry on.. but after awhile we really think she cant make it .. as she keep bang her head on the table and cant sit properly so we stop her from playing.. me and wilyn sat beside her to take care of her.. but suddenly she gone very wild.. she scream, kick and beat ppl.. she is like turn to a cat woman.. lol.. and when kenny woke up he was like mad shouting for qing mei.. tat night was so drama..

ly had adopted a jrt.. name mellow.. he look like a mice.. and they are always fighting with each other for everything.. very irritating sometime.. but when they are not fighting they are really cute.. and now they are fighting and barking at each other again now.. haiz..

song

2008-09-11T12:12:00.002+08:00

ytd wj had composed one song for sai sai lub.. but just a few sentence.. i name this song as sai sai lub 之歌

sai sai lub之歌

我是一只sai sai lub 我是一只狗
整天被人抱来抱去我什么都不做
吃饱就睡又大便我什么都不会

to be continue..

lol.. he had onli completed this much..

jrt gathering

2008-09-08T13:25:00.002+08:00

sat night tw had came to my hse and stay overnight.. its quite fun.. we keep talking craps as usual.. haha.. and got to know she had found a wen jie.. haha.. so happy for her.. wj got a very serious sun burn at sentosa.. he super red.. red like blood.. omg.. heart pain..

the best day..which is ytd.. we went to the jrt gathering tgt.. and her wj drive us there.. woohoo.. no need to waste money on cab fare.. good good.. haha.. but we took quite some time to find the place.. coz there one lady gave us wrong infromation.. and finally when we reach there.. we tot that they all had alr gone home.. as i didnt much jrt running ard there.. but lucky, 2 of them are still there.. the organiser is very nice and friendly.. she talks alot.. haha.. i guess the ppl there all know each other.. i see them enjoy themself alot.. and of coz we do too.. tw juz kip taking photo for dogs.. and she enjoy doing it.. whenever there is a new dog came in she will chase after them and tried to take some pic of them..

sai sai lub seem to like the westie alot.. he keep chasing after her.. and wanted to XXX her.. lol.. bian tai.. haha.. but that westie is really cute.. sai sai lub is so clever.. choose such a good looking gf.. lol.. and i saw one CHH.. it is so tiny!!! from his head to tail onli ard the lenght of my hand!!! it is so cute.. when tw had upload all the pic.. i will post it here.. it is really tiny.. he shld be name sai sai lub.. not mine.. mine looks so big while sitting beside her.. haha..

10 months

2008-09-04T21:46:00.002+08:00

10 months.. we had been tgt for 10 months..

tiring

2008-08-31T12:28:00.003+08:00

ytd my hse was like having a party.. so many people came to my hse and we can hardly find a place to sit.. my aunty from malaysia had came, as well as my cousin.. wj, janice and shelly also came.. my cousins were all children.. they super funny lor.. when they had just arrived at my hse, they were all so scared of sai sai lub.. but slowly, they started to play with sai sai lub.. but after they saw wj bang sai sai lub and ask sai sai lub to do some command and reward it with treats.. they get very excited over it.. all wanting to try it out.. after awhile, my whole packet of treats was finished!!!

around 5, edward drive us to west coast dog run.. to bring sai sai lub to meet his fren.. when the car stop, sai sai lub vomit!! i think he had ate too much.. after tat when we meet them in the dog run, sai sai lub 1st fren is lemon!!a 4 months old jack russell, same as sai sai lub.. at 1st they were all playing fine.. but suddenly sai sai lub got into a fight!! all dogs gangbang my sai sai lub, and sai sai lub can only stuggle.. he is so lousy that he is unable to fight back!! lol.. after he had been attacked by so many dogs, he is so scare that he walk around with us only.. he dun dare to walk near to any other dog again.. if a dog come he just roll over on the floor and not moving until the dog is gone.. stupid sai sai lub.. so lousy..

there is a dog super clever.. he got into a fight and his owner stopped him and scolded him.. when he was getting scold, his look just a a children get scolded by his mum.. and after that when there is a fight he just walk away.. he un dare to get involved anymore.. i saw wj sis there.. dun dare to talk to her.. but i saw her CHH.. its so beauitful and cute.. also it is very small.. but he is afraid of everything.. there is also one puppy, its also 4 months, he very funny lor.. whenever there is a dog coming toward him he will just lie on the floor and not moving.. he is so small.. smaller den sai sai lub by 2 times..

the gathering was fun.. i hope sai sai lub enjoy himself.. too bad he cant talk.. lol

2008-08-28T12:53:00.002+08:00

i feel so horrible right now. my intention is just wish him to be comfortable. i knew he wish to use the original one. i am not going to create a big sence.. i am going to ask nicely and see wat can i get back in the end.. if nth den nvm lor.. i will save money and buy one for him.. tat all i wan.. nth much.. and without listening to all this, he just object to watever i wan to do.. how can i be calm and tell everything nicely like this..

and just coz of this, he wan to give up.. i had cried from ytd night until now.. hoping to receive his msg, hoping to see him knocking at my door.. but nth had happened.. my mum cook his share.. how much i wish he can eat his share with me.. i knew he will not come.. he will not contact me.. but i just wan to wait.. no matter how hungry i am i just wan to wait for him.. i believe he is hungry as well..

i am wondering will he know tat i will cry?will he know tat my intention is always good? will he know how upset am i? will he know how much i wan him to talk to me 1st? i bet he is very ok with cold war.. but i am not..i try my best to not to touch my hp.. i try my best to be 'cold'.. i did successed, but in exchange, i cant stop my tears..

eng oral

2008-08-25T19:15:00.002+08:00

today is my eng oral.. i think i did quite badly as i am too nervous.. when i have the 10 mins, i read everything to myself a few times, everything goes very smoothly.. but once i am sitting in front of the examiner, i start to temble.. eng oral is so scary man.. this time is very different.. he didnt ask me to describ the pic, instead he ask me wat is the man is doing.. its just like question and answer.. actually it is simple.. but i am really too nevous and i think i didnt do well.. but nvm.. forget about it.. its over.. i think i will not fail.. one of the conversation question is what i worried most.. of coz is eng.. i told him how bad my eng was.. and how much i worry for my eng paper.. i take up quite a long time.. as there were 2 ppl waiting behind me.. haha.. one strange thing.. i am the only girl who went for today oral eng in jurong west sec.. haha..

i just came back from a walk with sai sai lub.. we meet brandon and his husky puppy lily.. they are both 4 months old.. but a super big diff in size.. sai sai lub is really sai sai lub beside lily.. sai sai lub got a few injuries on both of back paws.. i guess is hurt by the husky.. she is quite rough.. and brandon said lily likes to bite alot.. her teeth are so much stronger than sai sai lub.. as well as her paws.. lily just hit sai sai lub by using her paws, sai sai lub is down on the floor already.. lousy sai sai lub.. haha..

poor sai sai lub

2008-08-22T12:02:00.002+08:00

my poor sai sai lub is being trapped in the cage and not allow to come out.. ytd he wanting to come out so much after a long night sleep inside the cage and wish to roam around the house so much, he keep jumping up and down, barking to get our attention..hoping that someone will carried him out and so he could gave everyone in this house a warm morning greet and of course, tried to get some food from my mum.. but all this were just not allow!! why?? coz of that ass had came to my hse..

i carried sai sai lub into ly room, as its more spacious compare to mine.. i tot he will be happy like usual.. exploring the room, but he wasnt.. he wanted to find my mum.. and tat ass.. to greet them..and he looked up at me and started to cry.. its so heart breaking to hear his cried..so i carried him out and he went into tat ass.. he simply dislike sai sai lub alot.. i can tell from his faceial expression and his body laguage.. i dun see wat make him dislike sai sai lub.. it should be the oppsite way, sai sai lub dislike him.. sai sai lub is such a good boy, will not mix with bad guy like him.. just like mickey.. sai sai lub fight him and protect us.. how good the sence will be if even a dog also hate him.. HAHAHAHA..

be4 i teach sai sai lub attack he better get lost from my hse.. i hate him so much.. i really hate him.. for wat a good boy must being put inside the cage coz of a bad guy?! doesnt make sense at all.. but ..nvm.. sai sai lub.. u are a very good boy.. we all knew it.. dont get near to those bad guy.. good boy will be mix with bad guy yah..mummy will protect u..

xiao bai ci

2008-08-19T12:09:00.005+08:00

3 days ago, i was talking to tw on phone at night.. of coz wj was being chased out of my room, as we are sharing secerts.. as he got nothing to better to do, so he carried sai sai lub out of the cage and played with him.. after playing for almost one hour, sai sai lub was sweating and tired.. so wj carried sai sai lub into shelly room, took away one of my pillow and put it on the table, and let sai sai lub lie on the pillow and have some rest.. the most funny thing is, wj turned and stop the fan to make it fanning directly to sai sai lub while himself is feeling hot too.. he let sai sai lub use the fan and himself sweating beside him.. wat a funny scence.. just a few minutes later, sai sai lub make sign tat he wan to get down, and so wj carried him down on the floor.. and u know wat.. sai sai lub shit!!! he should be holding it for very long.. if not he would not do such thing.. anyway, he hold the other half of his shit and went to the newspaper to disposed them..

2 days ago, we went to tw house for dinner.. as her mum cook herbs soup.. damn nice.. my favourite.. after we had finish our dinner and we sit down together chit chat.. and wjfound a big lump of blue deck.. and he used it to make a sai sai lub for himself..

his sai sai lub is able to do all sort of commend too..

last time i had mention about the t shirt have the word wing on it.. i had taken pic of it, so now i post it here..

.....moody.....

2008-08-15T00:59:00.003+08:00

my buddy wing is going back to hk tml..actually wanted to find sometime to meet her..but just cant squeeze the time out.. haiz..but nvm..i will be seeing her again at end of year when i go back to hk..i will be missing her.. i found her very nice and good to talk and chat with.. last time maybe we are still too young , dun really know how to listen to each other.. sometime will even tried to compared with each other, which i hate the most.. so last time will not wish to talk to her that much.. but now she is going back.. i cant find her and call her anytime i like.. haiz.. i cant even make it to send her off tml.. as i have got english lesson which i cant miss..anyway i hope she can find a bf like wj!! she desever one.. good luck..

tomorrow shelly is moving out to her new home.. i think i will feel very wried as everytime when i am home i dun see her anymore.. without her voice the whole house will be very quiet.. no one can chat with me during late night.. and of coz gossip.. haha.. she is really my best fren.. i wish i can stay with her until we are going to start our own family.. lol.. but i know it is impossible.. there is no words can descirbe how much i will be missing her.. missing her laugher, her voice, some stupid action done by her like trying out all ways to make sai sai lub feels irritated.. i think i am too used to see her walking and staying with us.. but nvm.. we will got to separate sooner or later.. thank you for late for school with me and everything.. it will all be very great memories..i will bring sai sai lub to visit u very often.. get ready to be disturb by me.. haha.. actually i got alot to say.. but dunno how to express it out.. not even in chinese.. i can only say i am not happy..

i guess my mum likes sai sai lub.. as every morning her voice will wake me up.. she is not asking me to wake up.. but she is talking to sai sai lub.. she ask him to perform some comments.. i just keep heard her saying "bang!! u do bang 1st.. bang la.." as well as for "bye bye" and "sit up".. she will also ask him not to be so naughty etc.. she will even hug him and carry him.. haha.. my mum is so cute.. she even create a short form of calling sai sai lub.. which is sai lub.. lol.. but sai sai lub didnt respon to that.. sai sai lub is being very nauhty now a days.. when he is left alone outside he will pull down everything from the table and sofa and start to bite and destory it.. haiz.. when he will be a good doggy..

on the 30th also at the 7th sept, wj sis is going for the both jrt gathering.. omg.. she is my night mare.. she is very very scary to me.. i am afraid that i will say something wrong or when she know i am 20 yet i am still studying o lvl.. she will definely say i am lousy and watever shit.. the wroest still, i am afraid that she will tell all these to her parent, den they will definely give wj a very harsh life.. somemroe my english is so lousy.. she will definely look down on me..shit man.. if i were not being down grade by 3 years, it will not be so bad that she got so many things to say and report to his parents.. watever she said about me will not affect me.. but wat i am concering is wj.. i am so scare.. scare until i dun really wan to go to the gathering anymore.. a happy gathering become a very stressful one for me.. i guess i just act like someone who dont really like to talk and i am those quiet quiet type of girl.. i think it will be alot better.. so sisters, please remind me not to play like crazy..and remind me to control myself.. how much i wish i am just a normal people who she duno at all.. or she is not wj sis.. maybe in this way we can be fren.. but now i wish to be her fren as she is really very knowlegdable, but it will be very stressful for me.. i dun wan wj to have a difficult life or wat coz of my stupid or silly act outside..

time for me to study..byebye..
=(

o lvl chinese result

2008-08-13T00:02:00.004+08:00

today is the day!!!!!! but i totally forgot about it until shelly called me and asked me what is my grade.. then i remember today is the day for us to view our o lvl chinese result online!!! i dashed to the computer and cant wait to see what is the grade i got for my chinese.. is the 3rd time for me.. the 2 previous i got B3 and A2.. i duno why cant i get A1.. last year, my teacher were shocked to know i didnt get A1 but is a B3 for my chinese.. in fact, i was very disappointed too.. so when the sec chance came, i told myself not to make any stupid mistake again like the 1st exam.. maybe i was really over confidence.. or i am too relax about it.. i wrote out of point for my compo in the first exam.. and i didnt know it until last minutes before teacher was going to collect our paper, i then realized i had wrote out of point, but was too late to make any changes..

when my sec chance came, i tot i will be getting A1 for sure.. as my chinese standard is good, and end of year is for all those who didnt get good grade for their chinese at the previous mid year exam like me, so their standard should be "not so high".. and tw had gottten A1, so why cant i?
i thought i will be definely getting it.. maybe i was really too confidence, at the end i onli got A2.. this time round, i am so scare to view my result, i will be very disappointed if i didnt get A1 again.. i saw an A on the computer screen, but i dunno whether is 1 or 2.. i tot is a 2 again, but i look carefully, is a 1!!!! i got A1!!! i finally got it!!! i call back to shelly to tell her about it.. i was so happy, i finally did it.. the 1st thing i do is of coz send this good news to my 3 sisters..

today, me and wj did a very very stupid thing.. waste money too.. yesterday, we just brought sai sai lub to have his last injection done, and had bought a new collar for him.. and we had got no more money left.. wats more, we went to watch movie with zw they all.. wj still bought a pop corn for me coz he knows i love it.. and just within one day, our pocket left not more then 10 dollars.. and today when we are walking to library, we saw those machines which ur put coins inside and turn and then a ball will drop, i think u guys know wat am i talking about.. there is oen machine selling wedding disney couple, so wj said want to couple with me and he wan to buy it.. i tot it willdrop a pair each time den 2 dollars is alright so i got no objection.. after that it drop a donald duck and is a girl, so wen jie say wan to buy one more to make it a pair.. there goes another 2 dollars.. and he got a mickey mouse and is a boy.. out of 10 dollars, we spent 4 dollars within just a few minutes.. we had only got 6 dollars left for us to spend for this whole week.. but the process are really happy.. wj say he dun wan to marry a duck, as i got a duck.. we had been laughing for around half an hour about this.. when we were at library.. my donald duck tail drop out, actually i pulled it out.. and i could not find it back.. wj said he will find something to stuff inside.. let see what he will find den..haha

what a good start.. it give me a great movtiation to do better for the rest of my subjects.. so i must go and study now.. o level is just around the concer!!!

happy bday to shelly..

2008-08-08T20:39:00.002+08:00

7/8,is shelly bday..happy bday.. we had planned a amazing race for her to have some fun.. lucky her fren joined us.. if not there will be too little people.. and they quite enthu.. haha.. hope they enjoyed the game..i cant take much photo.. too rush..haha..

Yesterday my mum had came back to sg.. she was mad when she saw there are 2 dogs in a house.. and she said the house is very dirty.. we already tried our best to make it clean.. but it still not up to her expectation.. i get sai sai lub to perform a few tricks for her to see and told her how to make him stay and not going into room.. maybe she was impressed by him for knowing so many thingS? i not sure.. but at least she can accept sai sai lub..

Sadly.. mickey is being sent back to his owner.. as my mum cant really accept him, he is bad temper.. i guess my mum felt very stressed up after seeing the house is so dirty and plus mickey is too bad temper.. she cant even close the door as usual..and he will bark and being very fierce.. my mum find no reason to listen and only do things which mickey like.. and long yin had decided to send mickey back.. i knew that she is very upset.. i dunno what to say to an wei her.. but i promised to get a very good temper and healthy maltese puppy for her in future.. i will find a home breeder who will let the puppies stay with their mum until 2 months plus.. those puppies are the best.. as they will be very good behave since young.. of coz is all taugh by their mother..

actually i felt very upset for her too.. i cant imagine wat will happen if my dog had to send back.. that disappointment, sadness and those heart breaking pain..is realli very horrible.. that y i dunno what to say to her.. i cant ask her dont be sad.. that is impossible.. no point saying such rubbish.. but sai sai lub will be her dog until she get her own.. sai sai lub will be her baby.. =)

ytd was a super tiring day

2008-08-06T01:34:00.004+08:00

ytd was a super tiring day.. the day be4 ytd i didnt get to sleep at all.. coz i was talking with wen jie until 4am and then he said wanted to go toilet.. but suddennly the call hanged..i didnt know what happened and tried to call back.. but no respon.. i tried to talk to him in msn hopefully he will reply me..there is no reply too..i am very worried by then.. As we were talking half way, who will just forget about it after a less then 3 min toilet break? and he everyday will make sure i went bed and send me a good night msg.. but without all these action he will disappeared.. how could i sleep in such mood.. i try to throw myself to bed and close my eyes, but i cant.. i scare when he reply me i am in deep sleep and didnt know it.. but actually i am very very tired so at ard 6 plus i fall asleep, and at 8am my alarm clock woke mr up.. i called to his house and finally he answered the call.. finally i managed to get him.. i felt so relived.. he said he could not remeber what happened after he went to the toilet.. but later he said after thetoilet the hp is flat..so he charge it and tried to on it.. but he fall asleep within a sec..

we meet to go school tgt as usual, after school we went to orchard but cant find anything i like..after that we went to city hall.. and cant find anything i like too.. so after a long day of walking we felt very tired so went to starbuck to have a drink and relax.. suddenly i received shelly msg saying that my sai sai lub have an enemy,so i called home to check what happened to him.. and my sis told me that she just adopted one dog.. at 1st i tot it is a small little dog..but when i reached home i am shocked!!! a medium size dog..very big to me.. and he is veryy very dirty..his fur all stick tgt into a lumps, there is a shit stick on his tail fur no one notice it until i saw it..he is smelly and i should say in a veyr bad condition.. i am so worry for both sai sai lub and popeye (the big dog) health.. somemore sai sai lub is just a small little puppy he is not strong enough to resist or fight with all the germs and diseases that opeye might carry.. i am so worry i keep sai sai lub in my room..

and while me and my sis trying to bath popeye, wen jie went to check out sai sai lub food..coz i found a worm crawling on his food ytd morning when i feed him.. when wen jie poured out everything on the table, we saw countless worms are "living" there..OMG!!! is so scary man!!! when i am going to sleep..i get a clean t shirt for sai sai lub to sleep on..but when i unfold the t shirt, i saw a few BIG FAT WHITE COLOUR WORMS there!!! it looks more scary and discusting than the worms inside the dog food.. all those juz look like meal worms, and this look fat and juicy!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!! so much had happened on the same day, at a day i get the most 2 hours of sleep.. is really horrible day for me..

and today..my sis send popeye to spca.. as he is not a HDB approved size and he had many problems, we are able to handle all this..i feel very sad to hear he had went to spca..hope he can get well soon and go to a good home..he is lovely actually..just that he carried too many problems with him..maybe when he is out at the shelter for adoption i will go down to spca and visit him..

sai sai lub is being locked in cage for one whole day..coz wen jie say clean the floor 1st before letting him out to play..so when we reached hm is alr 5 plus..and finally he is able to come out to have fun he sprain his back leg..and now he is walking with 3 legs.. and walking slow.. not as active as before..i think the leg cause him discomfort and pain..hope he can get well soon!!!

YEAH!!!

2008-08-04T02:39:00.003+08:00

I am very very happy today.. Coz wen jie came back and it surprised me!!! I tot he will only be back at today mid night.. But afternoon when I just ate finished and perparing to go out, my door suddenly opened.. I am not aware, as I thought edward came to look for ly.. But shelly said,"eee, wen jie come back liao meh??" den i am shocked!! I said," huh, really meh? don't bluff leh.." and I am very urged to see who was standing in front of the gate.. And its really wen jie!!! OMG!!! I am so happy!!! I hugged him as long as I can!!!

Today he tried out Sai Sai lub de bang.. He is very amazed that I am able to get him to learnt this.. And he keep playing it!! Hehe..

And you know what?? Today is 3rd!!! Is another month for us.. He especially make it back for today to see me!! And one more thing, he bought a t-shirt in hk zara.. and there is the word "WING" on it.. I will take a pic of it and post it here.. Hehe.. He purposely wear it to see me on today!! Hee.. how sweet.. And he bought me kinder surprise..

Tomorrow we are going to town..YEAH!!!!

sai sai lub is so clever

2008-08-02T15:23:00.003+08:00

WOOHOO.. Sai Sai Lub learnt how to do "BANG" just a few minutes ago.. Yesterday I watched some vedio at youtube to learn how to teach a dog bang.. So I fallow all the intruction, and yes!! He really learnt it now!!! I am so happy.. Bang is what wen jie like.. He tried to teach many time but is not successful.. And now I did it!! Cant wait to show wen jie his new command "BANG".. Wen Jie comfirm will be very happy de.. Anyway I just msg him about this news, but he never reply.. Hope he will see this msg and is not his father see le den delete away.. Cant wait to received his msg to know his reaction.. Hehe..

1 more thing is I dont know why my posting time is different from the actual timing, its slower by a few hours.. Anyone know why??

Today is the second day.. Yesterday he told me he will be back on monday mid night, so count down from now is 2 more days then I can see him.. YEAH!!! Faster Faster..

1st day

2008-08-02T01:40:00.003+08:00

Today is the 1st day I spend without him.. Its like a very long day.. Is only the 1st day, but I feel like I have not been seeing him for a few days!!! Am I crazy?? Maybe.. Anyway, I am going to hug him for hours when he is back.. I promised!!

Yesterday after I posted my post I recevied his msg.. He told me that the sim card that I gave to him is not working.. My prediction is so accurate.. He used his daddy hp to msg me.. And he can only send me 2 to 3 msg a day.. But the strange thing is I dont know what to say to him when I received his msg.. I scared his dad see what I wrote.. Like love love miss miss.. Haiz.. He keep asking me to eat.. And my sis too!!! She send me a msg to remind me to eat!!! HAHA.. THANK YOU sis.. I will remember to eat.. In fact i ate alot today.. sigh.. I think I will grow fat..=(

I just want wen jie to be back as soon as possible.. When he is here, time is passing too fast without I realising it.. Anyway, today I went to library alone, but at late afternoon zq came and joined me.. Actually I had been sitting at library for hours figuring how to do the basic physic question.. No matter how hard I think and tried, I just cant get it right.. SO DEPRESSED.. Anyone can help me with it?? Tomorrow is saturday.. I am going to spend my whole day studying!!! There is no time to waste!! I must get good result this time round!!! JIA YOU!!!

Today after library zq went to watch movie with them.. But I got no money as I need to save them up to buy something for wen jie.. We cooked at home everyday just because we wanted to save more money, how can I just spend like this and forgot our aim.. So I went home to watch tv.. lol..

Wen jie.. when will u be back.. I miss u alot.. Faster come back,ok?

bored and tired

2008-07-31T23:34:00.005+08:00

He should have reached HK at 7 or 8.. But until now he still hasnt msg me.. Guess my sim card is not working anymore.. Haiz.. Life without him is so boring.. Hope he is doing fine in HK, and COME BACK EARLY..

I am going to move very soon.. HAIZ.. Is a stupid idea to move into such a small house to squeeze them.. Such a small house going to live the 6 of us and a dog?! sigh.. I really wish to know what my mum is thinking.. Nvm.. As long as they dont seperated sai sai lub and me I am fine with it..

Today i didnt manage to get much sleep.. As today morning I am so upset and i cant fall asleep.. Finally when Mr Chan reached was already going to be 11.. Until he was with me then I can have a good sleep.. But at around 1pm, he woke me up, saying that he got to go.. And i didnt sleep after that..

Evening while I am waiting for 187 at bus stop, I saw a file. Due to my curiousness, I opened it and saw a shuqun pri logo. And I was thinking should I help this poor little boy who had lost his file, I believed he should be very sad and panic now.. He will definetly get scolding from his parents and teachers. I still remember get scolded is the most scary thing to me when I am at that age. I was wondering what should I do.. sent it to his school or just leave it there, and so i called tzu wei up and ask her for some opinion. And finally I decided to help this poor little boy..
I carried it and sent it to shuqun pri, and when I did so, 187 still cant be seen. Even when I reached the next bus stoop,there was no sign of 187 at all..

I decided to take mrt, since its just a few stop away from my bus stop. Also, i need to get my card top up. While I am going to take out my card to top up, I realised that i didnt bring my ezlink card out, so I digged some coins for a mrt standard ticket. Lucky, I just got the right amount of coins. And the machine rejected my last 10 cent.. Lucky the malay guy behind me help me with it.. He gave me a 20 cent and this 20 cent really saved me.. A big thank you to him!!

I am damn tired now.. My eyes cant really open.. I can hear my bed is calling for me..

An upset morning

2008-07-31T09:28:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, or I should say just now. I try to apply blogskin and everything to my new blog. It was a very tough job for me, as I knew nothing for blogging. Last time I did tried to blog, but after awhile my blog was dead. (all my blogskin and everything is done by my fren, i didnt do anything on my own.) I keep trying until this morning 5 plus then i went to bed.

I am suspose to wake up latest by 10.30am and go for my geo lesson. But I ended up by waking up at 8am.. to call my bf.. ltr he is going to hk for a few days and ytd night he promised to come my house at latest 8.30am. so in case he couldnt wake up, I wake up early to call him. sigh.. No matter how many times I called he just didnt pick up, so I can confirmed that he didnt wake up,
and he will not wake up so soon.

My hope for seeing him longer be4 he go to hk is vanished. I am really upset. I cried on my bed trying to get myself to slp and rest more. But I failed, I am feeling very bad. Mixed feeling, frustrated and sad. Nvm. I will not blame him for this, he dont want thing to be in this way too. But I cant stop my words..haiz.>.<.. coz I am really very upset, he rarely make it when he promised me such thing. I think he will not dare to make such promise again..

Its ok.. Everyone knew that he treated me really good, I am a princess when I am on his hand. Coz of this, the more I should not blame him for this (although this really upset me alot). He thinks for me all the time, did everything for me. He knew that I dont like to do house work, he will just do everything for me, and i am just sitting outside watch tv while he is doing. No matter how tough and difficult my request is, he will also finish it for me. I guess I am a super kind person during the previous life. Haha. I think he should be reaching here now.. Its also almost time for me to feed Sai Sai Lub..

He said 8.30am and now is 10am, still I hafnt see him..=)